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quinta-feira, 18 de abril de 2013

"Diplomacia, ponderação e imparcialidade, características muito librianas, serão substituídas agora por uma receita que mistura ousadia, impulsividade e autoconfiança. No amor, os ares são totalmente novos e o momento é de intensidade."

Essas foram as linhas que apareceram no meu horóscopo mensal. Odeio quando o horóscopo bate. A maioria das pessoas gosta, porque aí já tem uma direção, já pode ir se preparando psicologicamente para o porvir e tal. Mas eu não, eu odeio. Principalmente quando se refere à mudança de caráter permanente. Primeiro, vamos falar da ousadia.

Ousadia, do verbo ousar, atrever-se a algo. Há alguns dias atrevi-me a mudar de vez a minha vida me mudando de volta para Natal, para a casa da minha mãe. Muitas coisas mudaram desde que meus pais se separaram e de certa forma eu me sinto com mais coragem para enfrentar novos desafios - e é aí que entra minha autoconfiança - e começar a dar novos passos por mim mesma. Recebi apoio da minha mãe em voltar pra casa não só pela comodidade que isso traria para ela, já que ela não vai mais precisar pagar uma babá para tomar de conta da minha irmã, mas também porque terei novas oportunidades de correr atrás do que tenho sonhado há anos - minha viagem ao redor da Europa. Chegou a hora de tirar esse sonho do papel e sacrifícios terão de ser feitos, mas serão recompensantes.
A impulsividade? Bem, essa é minha amiga de longa data. Impulsividade é como meu sobrenome. Sou muito emotiva, então costumo fazer muitas coisas sem pensar em mim porque geralmente estou muito ocupada pensando nos outros. Deixei de fazer muitas coisas na vida por estar apegada a alguém ou a algum lugar. Mas isso tem que mudar. Aliás, isso vai mudar. Afinal, só se 'VEVE' uma vez.
Quanto ao amor, já nem sei mais o que esperar do amor. Acho melhor ficar sossegada e esperar meu avião para a terra de Odin e deixar que Deus defina isso aí. Já dói demais ter de sair de perto dos meus amigos que tanto amo e me preocupar com eu estar deixando pra trás o cara que eu tinha como "amor da minha vida" em busca de satisfação própria. É a primeira vez que faço isso.

quinta-feira, 11 de novembro de 2010

Then I thought I saw him in the queue

Sometimes I think I'm going crazy or something, sometimes not. I have been hallucinating these days, believe me - Tom is everywhere I go, it's like he wants to keep me company. Maybe he also thinks like that, maybe he also takes a little time of his day to think about me or pretend I am there, by his side saying everything's going to be okay.
I create situations, I do domestic chores talking to myself as if he could listen to what I am saying. I wish, from the deepest part of my being, with all my soul and heart, that he could be here - or even better, that I could be there, because I would be far away from all this mess that is my life in this house. My room is in a mess, my life is in a mess, my parents are in a mess, my sister makes mess. There I would be safe, just me and him, just our mess, our passions, our conversations lasting evenings and mornings, our bodies close to eachother exhausted of all the joy we shared, our kisses and even our fights. Like Brandon would say in "Someday When We're Old" I want to live my days eternaly with him. I want to get old by his side to remember the good moments that we made love and cried, our first met, our first kiss, the first time he held my hand and I felt like the luckiest woman in the world, cause I'd got him.

That's how I feel.

Everyday I wake up in a new world/ the weather is just as bad/ and it looks the same. Without him, it'll all be the same, forever a world without colour, bad weather, grey skies.


Please, come to me soon, cause I won't wait forever - I might die lonely.

sábado, 17 de abril de 2010

Things that make me feel happy


This time, I will post in english. This is a special post to my special friend, Tom and my closest friend, Beatriz Tanabe. Both of them are my companions, guiding me through the night on MSN. I feel so lucky because I have them! Bet's (it's how I call Beatriz) is always making me laugh and telling me her funny stories from university. Although she's away from me, livin in another state, I think she is my closest friend and I know I can count on her. She gives me support when I am sad and when I am about to make hard decisions. Other thing about Bét's, but not less important: she's a big fan of Brandon Patton - I know I've told it for many times. And we're always playing the same songs at the same time, like a music parallel.
But now, let me talk about Tom. I think I never mentioned why he is so special to me or even why I want to spend all my days with him. I met Tom last year on a very-unlikely-internet-chat after unsuccesful tryings to find someone with a clever mind and without pervert ideas in it. I thank God because I could go to the info lab that day. My english teacher was sick, so, nothing was better than spend my morning in front of a computer. After about 40 minutes of good chat I was really afraid of miss him in case of internet connection problems. So, I decided to ask him for his MSN adress. After 8 months, here we are, talking almost everyday and thinking of eachother most of time. He is my inspiration when I want to draw and my strenght when I want to give up of everything and cry. He makes me feel so different, even being in such a distance. Tom-tom, as I like to call him, has a special place in my heart. I dedicate this post to him. I don't know what I would do without him, I don't know what I would do without my friends. I love you guys!